For those who have known me a long time you probably have sensed a distance in my posts. For that I apologize. I am dealing with family issues and limited funds. I must acknowledge I can't "fix" every thing. I have buried myself in work as a solution. Believe me there is no shortage of work here in which to bury myself. I just look at what's in front of me and deal with that. I can't think ahead or behind so I stay in the moment. And I pray. Both have an up side...prayer and work. Working in the heat outside from early morning to mid to late afternoon is kin to a gym membership without fees or a chain gang, I haven't decided.
I did forget one thing. I have friends here and I have not shared. Again, I apologize.
Today I dropped. I slept. I cooked. I did laundry. I fed the animals. I rested. I watched the news. The sorry state of this election is far scarier than inside my mind.. I fear it may boil down to which candidate the country hates the least. I may be mourning the loss of the America I used to know. Life is fluid and all things change but the changes I have witnessed in our government are very sad indeed. To me, there is only one hope, as scary as it is, Trump. I've known Hillary for a long time and believe me, she is one scary lady.
Before you stop reading, this is a story of hope. A story about two movies: Sling Blade and Freedom Writers Diary. I would recommend both. They are older movies but the message in both is timeless.
Whether I'll be able to pay the bills this month is yet to be seen but today I saw hope and love in both these movies. Maybe I "rested" for a reason. Maybe I needed to hear these messages.
Bad comes with all kinds of faces. With these movies I saw many different kinds of bad but also so much good. I saw hope. I didn't see a solution but for a few hours I believed there is a solution for every problem. I just have to find it.
I will continue banal posts waiting for the light at the end of the tunnel knowing there is a solution. So please bear with me while I seek my solution,..no, I'm not killing anyone! And I will always pray.