a tale of tails, tenacity, and tedium, as told by me, usually barefoot and bellowing

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Something's Not Right

During work break I sat outside and rolled the dead skin off my feet. I know I need to shave under my arms cause I can almost braid the hair. I am lower than a snake's belly and don't know why.

Just had to say that....don't know what direction I am going nor where I will end up but life ain't fun right now.

This day, this moment...

Don't worry I am not takin' a Michael Jackson cocktail nor a Janice Joplin snack nor would I do a shot gun tonsillectomy or slice my wrist with the Old Hickory. Life is never that bad but I sure am tired of feeling down.

I tried painting and all it did was make me realize I am not an artist. I trying petting my horses and almost got stepped on. Hell, even my dog barked at me and a cat bit me. I am not fit company for man nor beast.

Now I've said it, I shall let it go.


The Peach Tart said...

This makes me sad. We all struggle through these periods (I'm a year older than you). Hang in there. Perhaps start journaling your thoughts and feelings.

Thanks for dropping by my blog and following. Big hugs.

Rudee said...

I'm sorry you're in a funk. I think we all have these episodes. Usually they're short little spurts--just enough of a smackdown to remind us we're human. It sucks. Makes me feel like buying stock in Haagen Daaz.

Sending you hugs. And Gail? I was thinking your art looked compelling. Don't be so hard on yourself. You have the eye, both with painting and with your photography. At least it doesn't need to fit when you're done creating, only to find out you're delusional and not that thin anymore. Gad, I give away more knitting than you can shake a stick at because of that.

Robbin'sMama said...

Sorry you are so down, hope you are feeling better soon.

Grammy said...

Remember this is temporary and will go away. You are is wonderful and you are awesome. The only way to be happy is to tell your self to be. you can not find it you have to create it. Like I did brain wash your self till you believe. Laugh play smile. Love every thing. You are in need of a happy hug.

Pyatshaw said...

Sorry to read that you are so down at the moment. You'll come through it, your're a fighter! I think most people have times when everything goes wrong and the world is a big dark place.

Gennasus said...

Keep your chin up, things are bound to improve soon.

SkippyMom said...

Yes, but do you have beer? [I am going to get in trouble for writing that, as it is our inside joke - but I wanted you to laugh :D]

Never, ever doubt your artistic ability. You have an eye like no one I have ever seen and I love to come over "to visit" and see what's next - and your photography is WONDERFUL too - just amazing.

Hugs to you sweetie - I am always around - 'kay.

Sharon said...

I know you're feeling down and blue, but hang in there sweetie. I'm still thinking about you and praying for you daily.


Cara said...

I believe you will get through and come out in the end better than you were before. Some trials in life are external, some are internal. We are all here for you.

Sarah said...

Hi Gail! Have you kept a diary of when you feel down? Is there a pattern? If there is a pattern then something is causing it.You are not all the bad things you think you are - its just chemicals or lack of them making you feel this way.

I don't know any other bloggers who have a following like you.You genuinely touch people's hearts and the people who come here come because of you - not because of anything other than a real affection for you and your big heart.

When I am down, you always pop by and give me kind words.When nobody else visits my blog, you come.You are special, even though right now you feel like #####.

I hope by the time you read this you are feeling happier, but really - make a note of when these downs happen.Take care hunny bunny.
Sarah xx

Christy said...

I'm sorry Gail. I almost wrote this exact post today. I too am struggling right now. I'm overwhelmed and exhausted. I do understand! Hang in there, it usually gets better.

Country Girl said...

Hi, Gail. First I want to say thanks for coming by every so often to visit my blog.
And second, I want to say that I hope you're feeling better.
I felt this way earlier this year. I had some other issues as well such as tiredness in the afternoons and some weight gain. I finally went to my PCP because I thought I needed drugs and what surprised me was a thyroid condition. I actually feel a lot better now that I'm on synthroid.
I'm not saying that this is what's wrong with you, but try to keep track of how often and when it's happening.
Take care of yourself, my friend. It seems you have many here who care.

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